spin around this garden of hope ;
Monday, June 19, 2006 @ 3:40 PM
came back from church camp yesterday and i had the most wonderful time. okay when we first reached camp, honestly, i wasen't excited at all. i was still clueless why i was there. i remember my facils, melvyn and marie asking me who God was to me. and man, he seriously wasen't anything to me.but all that changed in just 3 days.
okay, so the first day. we had fun. had fancy dress competition. Mel won! we dressed him up as ms singapore universe. :p and jeremiah won best cat walk. he really was good! and sleeping at olgc(which was our campsite) was kinda disgusting cos it was infested with cockroaches. during the first day, i also had a personal sharing with marie. it was really weird cos i just met her and yet, i talked so openly about myself and my problems and stuff. and that went on for close to an hour. and it really felt good, letting everything out.
second day, we had games in the late morning. pretty fun. but last years camp games was 10 times better. after lunch, we had a reconcilition session and confession. so i went for confession. and as usual i was freaked out. especially when i got fr gerard cos he's damn scary and strict. but hmm...for the first time, i actually said real sins of mine that were haunting me. and it felt really really good letting it out. and what struck me most... fr gerard is a priest and he's sorta in the form of jesus. as i said all the most horrible sins, he just nodded his head and at the end of it, he just told me to change for he better and smiled. and that made me realise how much jesus loves me. and how forgiving he is.
and in the night. that was really really wonderful and magical. we were all asked to go to the prayer session very quietly and we were all freaked out at first. the room was dark and altar was brightly lit up with candles. gently music was being played and the whole atmosphere was really calm. we sat down and closed our eyes while waiting for everyone to fill the room. during the session, we sang songs and prayed and stuff. and while singing all those songs, suddenly , i broke down and cried. and one by one, slowly, people around me began to cry. the words in all those songs meant something to me and i was so touched by the holy spirit. i felt happy again. and everything was good again! and while all the crying was going on, we all felt like brothers and sisters. cos everyone was there for each other, comforting one another. and that is something really wonderful... there was so much love in that room that day. and then there was the pray over thing. when mel and marie asked me stand up, my legs were trembling. the first question they asked. "will you follow christ and walk with jesus?" and i nodded. as they prayed over me. i cried even harder. mel's grip on my shoulder got tighter and marie held my hand tighter. people were looking at me crying but well, i didn't seem to care at that point of time. everything felt great. after that, marie gave me a warm hug and smiled at me... i sat back down. and after a while, even the guys started crying. haha.
and then. someone from the back started screaming and shouting and laughing and crying and banging at the wall. very freaky! but god was touching him at that point of time. and in front, another girl was hyperventilating! but anyway, most people in that room that saturday night, was touched by GOD. our bed time that night was at 12am. we had roti prata for supper. lol.
and the third day was mostly packing up and a final mass with parents there. and we had to perform in front of our parents since it was fathers' day and all.
and yeahh...this whole camp was a wonderful experience. and now. GOD is no longer an outsider in my life. He is my friend. :)